Making friends

I am not a popular person.  I never have been. I've always been an outsider.  I just simply don't fit in.
I believe I am a good person.  I am a Christian.  And I try to always be friendly and kind to others.  So, why don't have more friends?  Real friends?  Most of what I have are acquaintances, or online friends.
I think I may know some of the reasons why I don't fit in, and have more friends.
1. I'm a homebody.  I don't get out much.  You have to get out of the house to meet people.
2. I don't do drama.  Life gives me enough natural drama I don't need to create any, or revel in any.
3. I don't party.  You will not find me at a club.  And I don't do drugs, smoke, or drink to excess.  Not my idea of fun.
4. I am also quiet.  A little shy.  Maybe too quiet.  You have to talk to make friends too.
5.  I am not involved in any hobbies, or groups with a social factor to them.  I use to belong to a homeschool group that had a mom's night out once a month.  But I am no longer homeschooling, so I don't feel I fit in there anymore.
All of this boils down to me being boring I think.  I think It's time to stretch myself, and get out more.

Full moon means weekend woes

Well it's almost the weekend, and normally I'd be excited about that fact, but I just found out that Saturday we will have a full moon.  Not just any full moon, but a Super full moon!  A super full moon is when a full moon appears on a night where the moon is closer to the earth than it typically is, bringing high tides and heightened emotions.  Not good news for people (like me) living with a few crazy people, and two autistic teens!
I know some of you may not believe that the moon effects people, but it does!  Especially people with mental or emotional problems. (my whole family!) By the way my people are acting tonight the effects have already started!
So, I am thinking I need an escape plan!  I would just stay but I still haven't got that tranquilizer gun that I've been asking for... (just kidding! sort of..)
I guess I have no choice but to tough it out.  Knowing my luck if I left I wouldn't have a house left standing to return to anyway!
So if you read this, and think of me this weekend, send up a prayer or two for me!  I would appreciate it!

Update

I hope everyone had a great holiday weekend, and enjoyed celebrating Independence Day.  I enjoyed it more than I thought I would.  Thanks to my neighbors I actually got to watch some fireworks after all.  Big ones too!  And thanks to my hubby who grilled burgers on the grill for us.  So not a bad day.
We went to look at a car last night. I was very disappointed.  The car has transmission problems, so uh, no.  No thanks.  It also looked like it was stolen. Any key would crank it, and the radio system had been torn out, wires hanging everywhere.  So still looking..  Praying we find one soon.
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning.  Not looking forward to it in all honesty.  It's a long drive, and we are having to rely on my mother in law to take us.  I really appreciate her taking the time and gas to take us so far.  Don't know what we would do without her.  I do hope for answers and healing though.  Although I don't believe I will find it at this particular doctor.  We shall see.
Believing in God for miracles right now.  Would appreciate any and all prayers for me and my family.

Oops...

I am not sure how it happened but somehow I deleted my last post.  Ugh.  It was the post about blogging, and how hard it is to get back to blogging after you haven't been doing it for some time.
Anyway...I am back at it.  I am constantly tweaking my blog to make it better.
As I said before if you have any constructive criticism or tips for me I would appreciate it.

Summertime

Well it is summertime here in North Georgia.  I hate it.  I hate summer!  I know that I am the minority on this, but I really do hate summer.  Here is three reasons why I hate summer so much.
1) The heat!  In Georgia it doesn't just get hot, it gets humid as well.  Making it a very sticky kind of hot.  Don't even bother putting makeup on! Because it will just slide right off your face anyway as soon as you walk out the door!  Don't bother fixing your hair either!  It won't last ten minutes.  You can't get naked enough to cool down in this kind of heat.  And if you have fair skin like I do, you have to wear lots of sunscreen or be fried like a lobster very quickly.
2) Bugs!  I hate creep crawlies!  I hate crawly critters, and I hate flying critters! Summertime here brings them all out in abundance!  You can't get away from them! You can try and use insect repellant, but who wants to spray that stinky stuff on them anyway?  And I am not sure at how effective it is either.  So between having to use sunscreen, and insect repellant your skin is a toxic greasy mess!
3) The electric bill.  This is somewhat self explanatory on it's own.  Everyone's electric bill usually goes up during the summer months with everyone trying to stay cool and comfortable.  Because despite what they tell you, if you are going to stay comfortable you will have the AC blasting!  My AC unit is really too small and inefficient for my home, so it has to work harder to keep us cool therefore costing us more money.  I need a new one, but can't afford it.
If I had a new AC unit, and a pool it would help me not to hate summer so much.  But for now I do, and I pray for an early Fall.

Drawing closer to God

The last few months have been really hard for me.  I have been in a great deal of physical pain. I have been diagnosed with a strange disorder called Tietze syndrome.  It is not serious, but it is painful. The pain is debilitating at times. I haven't been able to do much of anything but sit and rest. Which is very hard for me!  But for now I have to just sit and rest.
I think God has me in this place of rest for a reason. I have no choice but to rest, focus on Him, and what is most important in life.
Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God, I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted among the earth."
Nothing in this world is more important than our relationship with our Heavenly Father. Nothing. Yet we often put God last on our to-do lists, if at all. God desires a relationship with his children.  More than just a weekly church attendance, or a prayer only when we are in need.  He wants us to come to him daily, in all circumstances of our life.
In praying to Him out of desperation in my pain asking for healing, I realized that I haven't been praying as I should. In this I was ashamed.  So I have made a commitment to set aside more time each day to pray.
Through all of this I feel God drawing me closer to Him.  For that I am thankful.  Have you prayed today?
Philippians 4:6 "Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God."

Forgiveness

As a Christian I know that I am supposed to forgive others.  We are to forgive those that hurt us.  It is not always easy to do, but it is essential to our forgiveness, and happiness.
Jesus says in Mark 11:25 : "and when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any: that your Father also which is in Heaven may forgive you your trespasses."
Unforgiveness hinders the Blessing.  Which includes forgiveness of our sins, healing,and financial prosperity. It is not the only thing that can hinder the Blessing, but it may be one of the ways you may not be having your prayers answered.
I have had many people throughout my life who have hurt, used, or in other ways abused me.  Some were easier to forgive than others.  The way I have been able to forgive those that have hurt me, is to know that forgiveness is a decision, not a feeling.  I made the decision to forgive.  Not for them, but for me.  You can't truly live in peace, happiness, and freedom holding on to past hurts and grudges.  You can't.  I don't know about you but I want the peace, happiness, and freedom that comes from God's blessing.
I will talk more about forgiveness in later posts.  If you are having a hard time forgiving someone that has hurt you. Pray to Heavenly Father and ask him for help.  Then make the decision to forgive.  Say it openly "I forgive___".  You may have to repeat this over and over for a while, but soon your heart will line up with your decision to forgive.